the holidays

Well, my Christmas holiday season is officially over. I just got back from my grandmas and we aren't doing anything else today. Last night, I went to my other grandmas, the one on my dads side. We had dinner, opened presents, and had a good old time. I love going to that side of the family. They are all just so much fun and the whole night I am in a fantastic mood. Everyone over there is crazy and it's just a blast. We have weird traditions. One being the paper fight after we all open presents...it sorta died after someone knocked over my Uncles Gerry's drink. The guys also do something called "the salute". My great-aunt makes cream puffs, HUGE ones, and the guys all stuff a whole one in their mouth and we take pictures. It's quite funny. Now, it's not that I like my moms side any less, it's just that, I dunno, it's different. I liked being at my grandmas today, that was fun, but then we went over to my Aunt Betty's. That family is sorta big and I don't know everyone. They had just gotten done eating and were all sitting around talking. It was sad, the girls didn't really have a say in what was being talked about. It was mostly sports, which most of the women in my family don't know a lot about, but we got to talking about hockey, something I pride myself in being knowledgable in, and I didn't get to say 2 words. I felt inferior. It wasn't just that, but the women ended up cleaning and getting everything for the guys. Granted, I know that's how they were brought up, but the guys were more than capable of getting it for themselves. Say what you will about that, but I just think that they could get off their lazy asses and at least help with the dishes or get themselves a slice of pie, my aunt did do all of the cooking after all and it's not like she's young...she's in her late 70s. Then we went down the street to my aunt Claires. It was fine there until my cousins Emily and Amanda came over. When I am around them, I just feel not good enough. They are smarter than me, prettier than me, and I dunno, I just feel not good enough. It was just a weird day for me, I just felt so out of place with my own family today, I think that's the best way to say it. Granted, it was my extended family, but still, I felt a lot closer to them before today...I dunno what it is....sorry for the long blog by the way